by Ross
I look into your eyes,
I can see your deepest darkest secrets,
Every lie, hardship, embarrassment and pain.
Will anyone truly know who you are,
The loneliness you feel,
The strength you have,
The love you want.
The person that you are,
The person you want to be,
The person you can become.
No one else sees what I see,
O if someone just took the time,
They could see what I see.
If someone just took the time,
They could see how great you are,
Why won’t they take the time.
Why must you carry this burden alone,
The burden of greatness right inside you,
Why won’t anyone help you with this burden.
Will anyone truly know who you are,
Can you ever share these eyes with another,
Or will you continue staring into the mirror alone.
People go around searching for stronger words then love to describe the emotion they are feeling for someone else. They want to desribe the true raw feeling they have in the pit of their stomache that they have for someone and one word just doesn’t seem to describe that. I have come to the realization that “love” the word can desribe everything you feel for that person. We grow up with the word love so much; you love your grandparents, aunts, uncles, parents, etc. That you don’t know what it truly means until it is staring at you in the face.
For some love is a person who makes them feel comftorable or secure. To a person on the outside it’s easy to see that one party in the relationship may not be in love with the other (especially when one treats the other like shit) but who are we to judge love. It’s kind of like judging someone because of their sexuality because a lot of time you don’t chose who you fall in love with, it just happenes.
To others love is a committment, something that never really changes even when the circumstances around that love changes. You will love that person no matter what happeneds because when you gave your love to them you also gave a part of your soul to them.
I always use to think the phrase “It is better to love and lost then to have never love at all” was bullshit. I mean who wants to feel the heart break of losing the one you love. But I’m starting to come to the realization that this statement is correct. Love makes you feel alive in ways that no other feeling could, if you have that love in your life nothing else can bring you down. Without the feeling of love, even if it is for a brief peroid, none of us could really expirience all the emotions life has to offer us.
“Ross,
Of all the people I have learned to envy in my life, you are one. For many years you have been focused on others more than yourself. You have proved to be the best friend anyone can ask for, have, and also lose. I have a lot of respect for you for the person you are and who you wish to become. From the begining you have been one of the few people that I have trusted and cared for. I have strained our relatonship and have given it a lot of thought. You are right to be pissed at me, I let you down. I hope at one point things can go back to the way they were. I felt for a while that I had some connection to the past I enjoyed. You and I hanging out and talking. I hope your New Year is going well and I hope you’ll respond to this. ”
I’m sorry for posting this email but I just am kind of proud of it and kind of sad at the same time. I’m proud because no matter what your opinion always matters to me because no one in this world knows me better. I sit here and think about how many times we were in trouble together as kids and laugh about it. We were always there for each other, if I was in trouble you were right there next to me getting yelled at. If I was in a fight you’d be right there next to me no matter who it was against. Your mom was my mom growing up and your family was mine also. I sit and think about all the times we cried on each others shoulder and made each other laugh to take away the sadness. Your one of the few people in this world I’d take a bullet for and smile while dying because I’d know I saved someone I cared about (still).
We use to call each other bro for a reason because we were as close to being brothers as to people could. I have always been there for ya man; through every family fight, through every broken heart, through every tear shed. When you and Stacey were having problems you came and crashed here.
You left your friend…..your brother….with out any help because it wasn’t convenient to be there. That break up almost crushed me and to this day I’m still hurting. I lost the love of my life, my best friend and my brother all in the same fucking week. You want to talk about the worst week of my life.
Jim, I’m going to be honest with you. I don’t know who/what you have become man. To see what you always use to say and how motivated you use to be to accomplish your goals. You can do so fucking much in your life yet your not doing it and I know you can fucking do it. I don’t know who you have become since you have been dating Stacey but it’s definitely not the Jim I grew up with. Not the guy who wanted to be lawyer practicing international law.
So I guess I’ll say this man. I’ll cherish the memories I have with you. The ones of your mom getting married, us playing video games all night, us getting drunk at my brothers and pukeing all over the place. I don’t think we can be friends though as you have become a bad friend (not just the one incident and you know it). You know however if you ever need anything I will be right there; whether it be money, a place to stay or an extra fist in a fight I’ll always be there for ya…..because thats what brothers do.
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